We're all walking around with these gloss eyes.
"Im just tired", we say. But you know what? Its bullshit. Yes, we are tired, but its not all from lack of sleep. We're tired of waking up in the morning with nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things we find no enjoyment in doing. We're tired of this void, this emptiness that looms over us even though our days are packed. We're tired of the loneliness that presses down on us even though we're surrounded by dozens of people. So why cant we just say it? Why are we so afraid to look into another person's eyes and say i am unhappy, i am broken, i am hopeless and fallible. we've been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, differences with disease. as if these feelings were contagious, as if ambivalence is something not to be felt but to be feared. Screw all of that. Screw forced smiles and im fine, thank yous. Screw the fear of crying in public places, screw the fake chipper voice, screw the lies we spit out to cover up our problems. We are humans. We are meant to feel.